Insecurity.

Eats you up inside.
Brings you down.
Changes who you are.
Brings you down.

Stand up, friend, stand up.
Let go, and soar above those demons that are destroying you.
You can fly higher, you can achieve greater things.
Don't let it ruin you, don't let it ruin your potential.
Stand up, and soar.

Monster.

Monsters are horrible things. They possess practically everything ugly and everything that you are afraid of. They  represent darkness and will always suck the happiness dry from you.

People could turn into monsters too. Emotionally-drying monsters. Monsters that would scare you away, that you would never dream of befriending or going near to.

What if someone dear to you suddenly turned into a monster? A big, fat, possessive, emotion-eating monster? What would you do? Could you set that person free? Would you continue to love that person?

...or would you run away?

Christmas Rush

I was thinking of writing something related to Christmas since Christmas is only 4 days away, so here goes...

Christmas is about looking for gifts for the people you love.
Christmas is about you getting fatter from all the food you're about to eat during Christmas parties.
Christmas is about receiving gifts/money from loved ones and friends.
Christmas is about the awful traffic you're going to experience.
Christmas is about the sales.
Christmas is about spending more money on gifts, wrappers, ribbons, decorations, and Christmas party costumes...

...Is it really about these things? I beg to differ, really.

Christmas should be about giving, not only to the people you love, but also to the people who need love. Just like how Jesus came down from the earth and gave us not only unending love, but everlasting salvation, even though we didn't ask for it.
Christmas should be about spending time with your family, with your loved ones, the way that the Holy Family stuck together, no matter what happened.
Christmas should be centered on CHRIST. That's why it's named CHRISTmas in the first place: it is a celebration of how God came down from the earth to save mankind, which shows His unconditional love for us.
Christmas is about laying it down to Him, because He is in control. No matter what happens, or what has happened, He will always be in control, and He will definitely make things better.

I might start sounding like a priest giving his homily, but let's invite Christ, not just to His own birthday party, but also in our lives. Let Christmas be a reminder that God, in His love for us, sent His one and only Son to redeem us, and that we, in return, should also give ourselves to Him as a sign that we respond to His love.

Blah.

Questions. Secrets. Doubts. Uncertainties.

Nothing. Nonsense. Nowhere. No one.

Connection.

That's what we have.

We jive. We finish sentences for each other. We think similarly. We like almost the same things. We don't need to speak or say everything out loud. Even in silence, we are comfortable, we connect, we are one.

And this is the connection that I wouldn't trade for anything else in the world.

Pretending.

Behave. Behaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaave. NIKI, BEHAVE.

So okay, it's not really a blog post. It's made more for Twitter or something else. I want to be used to saying one-liners now, not wanting to explain that much or to be able to divulge that much information. If I were to say too much, it can be used against me. It can be misinterpreted, it can cause arguments. For once in a while in my life, I want to be secretive.

I want to be a great actress. I don't want people to know whether I'm sad or whether I'm happy. Sometimes, I want to hide.

Sometimes.

Questions on Emptiness

What does it feel like to be empty? To be emptied out? To feel nothing? To have nothing? To have nowhere to go to? To have no direction? To have nothing to give?

And then, how would you be able to complete yourself? How will you be able to pick up the pieces of your brokenness?