Of Unreciprocated Feelings.

I feel guilt, remorse, and sadness. No, I am not manhid, I can feel. I want so much to talk to you, to apologize but I guess now is not the right time because you do not want to talk to me. I can tell by the fact that you choose to stop contacting me.

I ask myself, "why are you feeling this much remorse over something you don't have any control over?" I don't know. Is it maybe because I feel so guilt because maybe you've been there longer and have constantly been a source of comfort and security and yet I chose him over you.

Or maybe there was a certain point of my life that I've loved you, or at least cared about you but it wasn't enough to last for a long time.

Or maybe I'm just being selfish and immature about this.

Still, even if you don't get to read this, I am sincerely sorry. Sobrang sorry. Nothing I say would take away the pain, but I humbly apologize from the bottom of my heart. I'm not manhid, I'm not a player, I cared.