Breaking Up.

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I encountered this video at this blog months ago. I showed this video to Adrian and told him that if ever we weren't really meant for each other, I want him to know that our relationship has made me grow so much as a person and that I wouldn't be harboring any resentment towards him. I never thought that that would happen sooner than I thought.

Like any other couple, Adrian and I loved, love each other. We had our share of ups and downs. But we wanted to make it work. However, during the later part of our relationship, I realized that, yes, we really love each other, but we just weren't on the same page anymore. He has other priorities to focus on, thus compromising our relationship.

And so, last night, we talked. As in really talked. About how I felt, about where do we go, and how it was best that maybe, it just wasn't the right time to be together.

But, like I said, I do not regret being in the relationship with him. It wasn't easy, yes, but I learned so much and changed so much as a person because of it. I'm much more mature, much more understand, much more patient, etc. I learned how to appreciate the small things.

And I place my trust in God, in whatever plan that He has for the both of us. It maybe that we'd still end up together at a later point in life, or that we'll meet someone better for us. I don't know. All I know is that all this is for the best. And yes, I'm sad about this. Really, really sad. But I'm at peace. I have a great support team. I'll be okay. :)

Realizations.

1. No matter how cliche it sounds, I believe everything happens for a reason. You meet people, you fall in love with someone, something happens because it has to happen for something/someone better to come. I should know.
2. There are some people who, no matter how much they've been hurt, their goodness shines through. They instead choose to forgive those that have offended them instead of bearing grudges, no matter how much it hurts. I admire those people.
3. There are also some people who will come into your life, make you cry and hurt you, but still you love them and accept them for who they are. You'd still want to be there for them when they're down and whenever they need you because, despite the tears and the pain, you know that they'll do the very same thing for you. 
4. Most of the time, it hurts to do the right thing. 
5. Sometimes, you'll end up hurting the ones you love. 
6. There will always be a point in your life where you start asking "what if?" Sometimes, you'd be given a chance to answer that question, but most of time, you won't be given a chance to find out what happens. 
7. Life goes on. You will never be stuck in one specific moment or you won't be able to rewind and change what was. All you can do is smile and say, "no regrets", then move on.